ammends

i dont really
know
what i should
think
because i dont
know
if in you i should
trust

you have a bad
past
and thats changed my
views
on everything thats
you
maybe not everything
you
but so much
more

i dont really
know
what i should
think
because i dont
know
if in you i should
trust

-S.
4:23:10

Hurt Worse. Better than Feeling Love.

"Cuz I'm me can I ask you something? I'll only ask if you answer this first...otherwise, well, I'll assume ad live with trying to end things unwell again."

I just wanted to ask one thing.

Is that too much?

To ask of you?

Obviously.

What I wanted to ask?

What happened?

To make you

This way?

Why are you this player?

That I never knew?

What the hell

happened

To that kid I remember before?

The one I slowly grew to?

The one I miss

So much.

The world will never know.

-S

4:19:10

+I'm assuming that the reason is a game. I asked you before and you denied it was a game. I think you lied. I know you did. I'm assuming that you don't give a damn and I have no idea why I am still hung up on you. I'm just looking for someone else. Someone not you.

The only thing that sucks is the one I was looking at was also a douche. In a different way. But I'm sick of the and I'm sick of thinking about you. I'm sick of dreaming about you even if it was a dream about slapping you. Let me. Leave me. Stop the fuck it.

It's not you, I'm overreacting but I don't care.

Then there's now

Don't hurt her
I know I wont hurt him
To actually like someone
Who isn't you
Is a releif.

I'm here to stay
There is no past tense
Of the word love
But he isn't
one to stop it.

I'm glad now
For something else, you know?
I thank you and hate you
You are my worst
Enemy

And you are
The person I will always love
Because of what you did
To change me and make
me stronger

-S.

4:2:10

He said

"One time you asked why I keep doing this, why I keep abandoning you. Well here's my answer. I'm afraid of getting my heart broken. I know I may be doing it to you, but it just seems like everytime I ever really care for someone they fuck me over and I don't want that to happen ever again. So I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused."

You lied. Unless you really are a chicken. You're not scared of getting your heart broken. You're scared of love.

-S.
11:30:09-3:12:10

Webbery

Like I said the other day, I want to know what we're doing.
You said you were scared of getting your heart broken.
So am I, but I'm willing to take chances.
All those freshmen fawning over you....
Makes me feel like I'm lesser

-S.
12:4:09

Same Thing

So we're back together
But it's not the same
So you say you love me
But it's not the same

I didn't know what I asked for
When I said I wanted you to change
So I don't know which is better
Because this seems to be where you stand

And I'm okay right now
Cuz you are the same
And I'm okay with this
Cuz you are the same

Yet it's still what you do to me
That you do to every girl
So I don't know what to do or say
Because this seems to be where you stand

That's when I'm not 'kay
Although it's the same
That's when it can hurt
The most
And that is the same.
I hope you can change from that
For someone else.
I want to be done.
And I'll still add...

I love you

-S.

3:2:10